Another quake
Lately, my life has been a wild ride. At one time, it was completely good, and at another it turned out to be a bit disaster. I have not earned a good sleep lately. In fact I have been sleeping for less than 3 hours every day. I grow a bit tired at certain times. I wish I could just sleep and woke up the next day feeling all fresh. I think too much of everything I guess (a friend said so too). If you crack open my head, you might see there are loads of things going on inside it. WOAHHHHHHHHHHHHH...I need some more sleeeeeeeeeppppppppppppp.
Another earthquake hit Indonesia last night. It was @ Nias island. Around 300 people reported death and the tolls keep rising. They predicted it would reach 1000 to 2000. This is a very unfortunate situation. I feel so sorry for the victims. Nobody deserves this. I hope the death tolls stand very low this time around.
I think I can earn my rest now. *yawning*
Cecilia walked through the seasons at
8:13 AM
Zouk
Back in 2003, I remembered that night Liya and Fanny asked me out for clubbing. "Ayo Li, ikut kita ke Zouk..barengan." I sat down in my room, thinking...would it be a good idea going there or just stay at home? After all, I was never a queen of clubbing or anything. I went clubbing only few times on the Gold Coast...once I was there for Valentine's day celebration with Jason and others. It was @ Coco's, the most famous club for Asian students..Broadbeach area...I visited the pub at my school few times..dons ourselves with few glasses of beer...the rest of the parties were held at Golf's place I guess. There was one time, I went to Melbas...the most happening club around that period at Surfer's Paradise. That was because me and Ita had to meet these two greek friends for dinner and they wanted to visit Melbas afterwards. We drank lightly 'cos we're driving. Few times, we went to Jupiter casino and had great times at a bar there..only then Annysa collapsed...she had around 7-8 shoots of tequilla straight...that girl was one of the wildest girl I knew! hehehe...She pucked on me and on my bag...that's the day I declared myself of freeing myself from alcohol. (the impact on Annysa gave me a creep!). After that, there was no more parties for me. I started my university day and I just studied hard. For the last 2 years of my uni day, I spent most of my time just having a cup of tea over tea-time and visiting my friends' place for a late movie in or we just went for a movie or supper. We didn't bang our heads or anything.
That's why when two of my friends asked me to go with 'em..I didn't know it was ever a good idea or just a mistake after I gave up all those party times long time ago. In the end, I said yes 'cos Liya was leaving for Jakarta and I didn't know if I would meet her again. It was a farewell party, we called it. My mom was here that time. I asked for her pemission. She wasn't happy about it but eventually she said yes. By the time I was ready..it was raining so hard. I was thinking maybe this was just a good idea, I shouldn't go. In the end, I didn't.
And I settled myself back home in Surabaya. There, I knew nothing about partying but out of the blue, I was down with problems. I couldn't handle all the pressures and my sisters suggested me to hang out more and to think less. I met new friends and went for clubbing that night. That was in 2004...since then I went for clubbing quite often, not to don myself in alcohol 'cos I don't take high level on alcohol. I went there to listen to the live band. I indulged myself in plain water, believe it or not ;)
Somehow, I found myself pretty tired of going to this club and took a turn for coffee shop instead :) which always much more pleasant than anything else. The very last time I was out and about at the club was during that reunion of my school. I went to JJ on Friday night and on Saturday night, I went to Hugo's. Since then, I kept myself lock at home...
But in January, I was visiting my friends in thailand..they just rang me to tell me to bring my passport along with me. I asked them where we would go, they didn't say a thing, just said bring your passport, I did and we went to Ashley's corner..nice club :) I didn't drink seriously.
And last night, there you go, I was there...Zouk...the most happening place in Singapore (according to one of my friend's friend). I didn't find myself feeling comfortable and I suffered from dizzyness either because I didn't have enough food to eat, had not been drinking for sometime or the music...my guess, the mixture of all three. I felt so bad towards my friend's friends. They couldn't enjoy the night because of me. :(
Kinda embarrassing...I wish I weren't there yesterday...I wish I were at home and just slept throughout the night. They must be very pissed..sorry guys :(
After all, I am just a good girl.
Cecilia walked through the seasons at
8:16 PM
I was so tired...
I have no idea why I easily get so tired these days. I get sleepy now and then and I have enough sleep I reckon. It is just my brains perhaps do not get enough time to rest :(
Well today I got so tired as well. I kept yawning again and again. I had had lunch with my friend. @night, we went for dinner together at this taiwanese restaurant and we ate "xiao long pau" hmmm yummy...
And again supper...went home around 2 am after some "keluar jalur" discussion ;p Sometime I just went off my limits...when I am in that zany mood...no wonder people have always have misconception about me in some ways. I need to be modest I guess.
Cecilia walked through the seasons at
7:46 PM
Equinox + Mt.Faber
I went for dinner with a friend of mine @ a Japanese resto (I didn't remember the name) but it was @ Shaw centre (I just told my nanny the previous week that I never had had any dinner there but now I did). The food was good and I liked the 'beef tounge'! Simply delicioussssssss...yummy :)
And my friend apparently had had another 'appointment' with his friend here (and he didn't tell me that...or else I wouldn't come along in the first place). Anyway we headed to "Equinox"...it's located at the top level of Swissotel...I am just so 'kuper' here, I know nowhere! The place was breathtaking..the view was spectacular :) How I wish my sister would be there with me! She would take tons of pictures there! hehehe
Then another friend of them arrived...he's a really entertaining guy, very hillarious ;p He recommended us to visit Mt.Faber and we did...I liked the view!!!!!!! So romantic..reminding me of "Mt Kootah" in Brisbane...I used to visit there a lot with Annysa, Sonny, Dicky and Mindy! hehehe we were so crazy, couldn't sleep at 2 am and called up each other, asking each other what we should do to kill the time..Mindy decided we helped her hunting this "Egg Chocolate" that gave smurf figurines for free. We searched throughout those 24-hours stores around the Coast and failed to find some figurines she didn't have. Finally, we decided to visit our fav place "Quix" up there in Brisbane...off we went to Brisbane in the middle of morning...just wearing pyjamas and slippers and it was winter! We managed to get a unique smurf (according to Mindy) and chilled out at Mount Kootah...Just enjoying the breathtaking scenery there...we could see the entire Brisbane there...Before we headed back to the Coast, we visisted the cemetry, hoping we might spot a ghost or anything that flew hehehe...and reaching Gold Coast by 7am, took cold shower and we went to classes feeling so tired and sleepy! (Dicky always failed to turn up!) LOL oh how I miss the old times...
Anyway before we went home, the guys insisting on having supper...they're bonkers! They ate chicken rice and I arrived home around 2.30am. I had had fun, though...and glad that I met new friends :)
Cecilia walked through the seasons at
4:38 PM
More of paperdolls and b'day!
Today is Suster's and Spanky's Birthday! Yeah...one celebrates her 49 years old and another one celebrates his 4th year here :)
Happy Birthday to them...
And I am so addicted to Paperdolls! Here are some and my fav is by far, Jennifer Anniston!
Ayumi looks great too
And finally Mr.Oscar
Cecilia walked through the seasons at
4:00 PM
Paperdoll Celebrities
I have been playing around with these cool paperdolls! Check them out at www.paperdollheaven.com
Cecilia walked through the seasons at
12:25 AM
When two things do not go the same way
Pretty hethic week I had last week. I was in Bangkok for 4 days. I stayed at Baiyoke hotel..the hotel was pretty creepy and I dreamt of a snake bit me 'till I was left paralysed. The shopping was good, though. I cannot complain about this one. But the real purpose of me visiting there was doing my job. New job, new things, trying to get used to it. If I ever succeded in this new business, soon I would have to travel on my own now and then. Anyway, the real highlight was meeting my friends :)..Tong took me to Jathucak market..kinda nice place to visit 'cos I found this mini-skirt batik I had always longed for (I bought two!), the hand-painted t-shirt and a transparent green top (very sexy!). We had had lunch there and it was tasty (I had dried noodle). Then we went to Chit Lom 'cos I wanted to pray at the famous "Four Faced Buddha". Since it was at Erawan area (the posh area there), I looked around at the mall there..nice places..then I started day-dreaming about if one day I could do all the shopping there and stayed over there! At night, I met Cathy and we went for dinner @ Sizzler. Gosh, I was just being so greedy, I ordered two steaks and in the end, I couldn't finish 'em :(
Anyway, am back here in Singapore (thank you, God, I didn't get intro troubles at all!). Decided to take off my hair extension and redyed my hair to reddish-orange..was a shocking color but now, I kinda like it (after the color washed off few times). I am suffering from mid-crisis of putting some weight recently. I look chubbier :(
But, soon I will be indulge in a very stressing period. Sometime, it is kinda good. I can lose weight without dieting at all ;P
Lately, I have been asking myself, why life has never been fair to me? Why it is so complicated? How I wish everything turned the other way round...this heart-ache is getting more and more painful. I have been stabbed. Just last year, I was so down because of love and now, exactly a year after, I find myself in the very same plot. Why can't everything turn out right, just one time, just this time around? What have I done? I wish the rain would wash me off shore and never return. I don't think I will be ready to be tormented once again. I wish I were as brave as Mint. I wish I could just elope with everything and go on with my decision like she did. She's a brave young lady and I am happy for her that she has found her true happiness. Perhaps, I shall consider what she has offered me last week. I have been thinking hard about it. I am just not sure if I'm that brave enough. *sigh* Maybe it is time...maybe I can...maybe that's what I am supposed to do...maybe that is the righteous decision...that's why I came in contact with her again...it's one of my way out...maybe what I need to do is just pack all of my stuffs and leave all the memories behind and never look back. There is nothing left there for me in my hometown...I cannot rebuild my life there...no more space...no more love for me there...only hatred,only pain and only dissapointment. I am just running away temporarily...I have to think permanently for my own future.
Cecilia walked through the seasons at
11:05 PM
Scared...
Leaving today :(
Scared to death especially what my mom's friend had been experiencing two fortnights ago with the fussy immigration people or custom check to be precised..
God, please help me this time around...I really need Your help and miracle, God...please God...
Cecilia walked through the seasons at
12:19 AM
2 more days...
and I will be gone..feeling anxious and yet nervous all at once...I don't know what I expect from my up-coming trip..deep down in my heart, I don't want to do all of these but it's too late...Oh what am I doing????? I just feel confused and dazed now...
I hope everything will be alright...the whole single trip and the visa..I hope I will lose nothing and gain more...God please help me...
P.S: Worrying a lot :(
Cecilia walked through the seasons at
12:38 PM
