Pretty hethic week I had last week. I was in Bangkok for 4 days. I stayed at Baiyoke hotel..the hotel was pretty creepy and I dreamt of a snake bit me 'till I was left paralysed. The shopping was good, though. I cannot complain about this one. But the real purpose of me visiting there was doing my job. New job, new things, trying to get used to it. If I ever succeded in this new business, soon I would have to travel on my own now and then. Anyway, the real highlight was meeting my friends :)..Tong took me to Jathucak market..kinda nice place to visit 'cos I found this mini-skirt batik I had always longed for (I bought two!), the hand-painted t-shirt and a transparent green top (very sexy!). We had had lunch there and it was tasty (I had dried noodle). Then we went to Chit Lom 'cos I wanted to pray at the famous "Four Faced Buddha". Since it was at Erawan area (the posh area there), I looked around at the mall there..nice places..then I started day-dreaming about if one day I could do all the shopping there and stayed over there! At night, I met Cathy and we went for dinner @ Sizzler. Gosh, I was just being so greedy, I ordered two steaks and in the end, I couldn't finish 'em :(
Anyway, am back here in Singapore (thank you, God, I didn't get intro troubles at all!). Decided to take off my hair extension and redyed my hair to reddish-orange..was a shocking color but now, I kinda like it (after the color washed off few times). I am suffering from mid-crisis of putting some weight recently. I look chubbier :(
But, soon I will be indulge in a very stressing period. Sometime, it is kinda good. I can lose weight without dieting at all ;P
Lately, I have been asking myself, why life has never been fair to me? Why it is so complicated? How I wish everything turned the other way round...this heart-ache is getting more and more painful. I have been stabbed. Just last year, I was so down because of love and now, exactly a year after, I find myself in the very same plot. Why can't everything turn out right, just one time, just this time around? What have I done? I wish the rain would wash me off shore and never return. I don't think I will be ready to be tormented once again. I wish I were as brave as Mint. I wish I could just elope with everything and go on with my decision like she did. She's a brave young lady and I am happy for her that she has found her true happiness. Perhaps, I shall consider what she has offered me last week. I have been thinking hard about it. I am just not sure if I'm that brave enough. *sigh* Maybe it is time...maybe I can...maybe that's what I am supposed to do...maybe that is the righteous decision...that's why I came in contact with her again...it's one of my way out...maybe what I need to do is just pack all of my stuffs and leave all the memories behind and never look back. There is nothing left there for me in my hometown...I cannot rebuild my life there...no more space...no more love for me there...only hatred,only pain and only dissapointment. I am just running away temporarily...I have to think permanently for my own future.
