...::Seasons of Cecilia..

Everything has to go

I am planning to sell my mobile off. It's about the time to really really get over him. I kept his smses on my mobile and I deleted them 2 days ago. Smart move. At least he will be outta my life bit by bit. I still have few smses from him on my phone. Not that I don't want to delete them, I do but I am just too lazy to search from 2300++ smses that I keep on my mobile. Those thick notes I have from him needs to be thrown outta my wardrobe as soon as possible. I have to get rid of my XDA II 'cos he is using the same mobile device and I don't like it. It reminds me of him sometime. All of those clothes that I used when I was with him would go to orphan homes (I keep them under one of my compartments 'cos I didn't want to wear them but didn't want to get rid of them too, but now I do!). Every single little things that reminds me of him have to be outta my room and outta my house.

This year is the year when me is me. Unlike last year, I wasn't myself. I was trying to prove to him that I could do better than he did. Finally I learnt, that's not all about it in life. The fact that everything has ended and it's not the end of this world. I was overdoing myself last year which come to think of it today, it was a stupid move. I didn't do any good to myself, I was crushing myself to my own death. I wasn't myself, too, 2 years ago when I was still with him. Again, another stupid move by a stupid girl. I don't want to look back and regret all of those, but I take it as a learning experiences in life. True enough, I lost a lot but I have gained a lot too.

In 2005, I will stop all my non-senses. Sometime all I need is holiday to refresh my mind and rethink of what to do. I am glad that I do get the chance to enjoy the longest holiday ever in my life!

Cecilia walked through the seasons at 10:13 PM