Anyway since I cried so badly 24-hr ago (yeah it's 10 to 4 in the morning now), I couldn't sleep. Tried to rest my minds but they kept rolling like crazy! I left out a big sigh and I went downstairs, trying to make a cup of hot tea. I said, "Yeah perhaps it will calm me down a bit. After all it's no good tossing around in my bed and start being a paranoid!" I got the cup, the luke-warm water and everything ready, the only problem was, I couldn't find the tea! Speaking of a girl who despises kitchen as I despise snakes, here it is! I don't even know where all the teas are being kept! I went rummaging the whole storages, up and down - up and down, I got a bit frustated by the end of my search and was still empty-handed. I gave up and I searched for a substitute, there ya go, I found this Hersey chocolate. Though, it was for making a chocolate cake, a desperate call, I read the instruction and it said yeah I could make a cup of hot chocolate. I open the lid (it was brand new) and was ready to get 3 teaspoons of the choco powder then it struck me, I might not have any decent low fat milk left! I checked on my fridge, and it confirmed my biggest fear. I shouted, "Damn! Everything doesn't seem to go my way!" I put back all the ingredients and hey I saw a Low fat chocolate milk! It was cold so I began to heat it up. Apparently, all my actions (about opening and closing the storages and making some noises) woke my helper up. She asked me what I was doing as early as 4.30 in the morning. I looked up at the clock, I stared in disbelieve...that whole fiasco finding the tea bags and everything had gone for an hour at least! I explained to her that I couldn't sleep even though I was feeling very very tired, so I heated up some milk to help me get a good sleep. She asked me why I couldn't sleep and kept looking for possible problems. I couldn't tell her I just had had a good cry or that I was feeling so not right out of the blue! She might think I went nuts! Then she came up with a suggestion to why I failed to get myself a sleep, it's the book I had been reading! She said it might be eerie or creepy. I said non-sense, it was not a thriller, it was more into science fiction (Digital Fortress by Dan Brown). She accompanied me there whilst I sipped my hot chocolate and we started telling each other stories. Around 6, I began to feel tired and she said I really needed some rest. I agreed and went back to my room and only then I realised the milk I had been drinking was in a matter of fact, expired! No wonder, it tasted sour! speaking of depression! :p

I got myself around 4-5 hours of sleep before heading to my friend's place (after shower of course!) to get the Ipod. I went down for a bit of shopping but ya know I was not in a really good shopping mood. All I could find was a blue cap and 2 pieces of undies. I was desperate to get something to read but there wasn't any nice books around except that Asia Marketing (I am still eyeing on that book but it's bloody expensive!).

I went home, somehow feeling empty handed (even though I wasn't!) and asked my helper if she wanted to have dinner with me 'cos I wanted to eat something heavy. In the end, we ate fried rice. Good full dinner led me to my comfy bed and ok I don't exatcly get good sleep cos now I am wide awake! Perhaps this "The Rule of Four" can help me to sleep :)

I hope I will start the day today better than yesterday. Babe, just be patient! I was a bit in my own lala land yesterday ;p