My mind started travelling about the upcoming xmas and new year. Wanna spend close to special someone but I don't know if I can do that. I started to worry, worried what if I couldn't, worried what if I couldn't extend my stay as I had already planned it and I had to travel again like last month without any notice? What if I made someone dissapointed again? Xmas and NY are two special times to celebrate with the love ones. They are special festives and I must say I am more anxious about xmas and NY rather than Val's Day. I don't even plan to spend Val's Day next year with the special person, I just treat it like any other day...but these 2 must be spent with that person :(

I always believe that the closing year brings something special to everyone's life. If you can spend that very last day with people you love, then you realise that you haved lived another year of your life and so did the people around you. You begin a new life and new resolution to your life. You don't even know if that next year, you still be able to spend the whole 365 days on earth and so are the people you love. I have to say on 31st of Dec is the day you shall praise and give thanks to the Lord.

Thus, I wanna spend this xmas and NY with "someone". God, please help me...permit me to stay still where I am now until the NY so that I can spend this special year with this special person in my life. I believe in You, Lord God. Amen.