It's tiring, isn't it? When you keep failing in every relationships that you have been. Everything seems so perfect in the beginning, then you hope for something more as the relationships progress well. As you are hoping for something more, you want it to be developed into something more meaningful, thus you become quite serious about it. But, one day, just that one day, you found out all those hopes fade away. None of the hopes come to the expectation. Everything begins to crumble into pieces. Suddenly, you feel like everything is wrong, everything has been torn apart. Whatever you do is wrong, whatever you say is not right and whatever you want is just impossible to achieve. You start wondering, who is wrong here, who is right there, what is that being said and is wrong? What is right? What makes everything flatter? Come that 'Lost'feeling, out of nowhere you become desperate to get out from the situation. You want someone to help but nobody wants to offer you the help. You feel like the blood inside you is draining and feeling that you are dying. That's exactly how I feel today. So desperate to breathe again...