P.S: Catchphrase of the night : "That's it!" and "Weitttsss"...taken from Nico's dictionary.

Here is the pic from that Spinelli affair I had

...and later on that nite, we continued our journey of 'ngafeing' at Starbucks

P.S:Oh btw, I do have another ticket in my hands now that is a return air ticket :)...problem solved. Case closed.

P.S.S:As for two days ago, I went to Starbucks with friends and meeting new friends...here's the picture that we managed to take and Marcos being the clown in the group! huahuahua he's the funny man!

As for the dinner, it went alright, just a normal dinner...I told ya I was running away from reality this year, that's why I was in Singapore for Valentine's Day and thankfully I was ill on the day itself ;p ---> don't ya think I'm weird to be feeling so glad that I fell ill on Val's day?

So I went for the movie with S and L. We had a blast. We agreed how we needed lucks in life above hard works. After the movie, ok, we unleashed our hungers by eating all these sinful dinner @ one of a chinese restaurant, I didn't remember where it was as I had never been there or knew the existence of it. We had had 'Chinese Pizza' which was so awesome, some dumplings, xiao long bao, noddles and the best dessert ever! I just lurve the food there. We were dead full and yet less than 30 min later, we headed down to Holland V to have some light drinks. We ended up @ TCC after few minutes of undecide directions. I loved my drink that night, it was called 'Sea of Love'. We spent hours and hours talking about all these guys and the future :o I must say we had had a very interesting topic that night. We ended the night at about 11+ and the next day I caught flu :S

Reflecting back from years to years on how I have spent each val's day in each year:

What makes the diff is the problems everybody is facing are diff. Surprisingly, every humans always think that their problems are the worst among other people who suffer from different problems. Like myself for an example, I keep saying that a friend of mine is luckier, at least her problem is not as bad as mine. She can at least do this and that without having to think what it might do to her or the others whilst I can't. On the other hand, she thinks that her problem is even worst than anyone can imagine, she just can't deal with her problems anymore. It keeps going on and on like that. Whenever you share your problems with someone, sometime what the listeners think inside is "That's quite alright comparing to my own problems."

I probably keep thinking to why I have to deal with unnecessary problems all my life. I do at one point think I might not survive due to the exhaustion in tackling all my problems. At another time, I say I have enough and I don't want to know what is there tomorrow. You can call me self-centered bitch for all I care, but I have to say, I have not met someone who has to deal with every issues that happens every day in a week like me. I am not saying that other people don't have their problems, they do but they don't encounter problems as often as I do in life. I can go smilling for a day to 3, and the 4th day I will start frowning due to the bad news I received or the problems that I encounter on the 4th day. When I see my sis, she's like the happiest person on earth. She smiles more than she knows how to cry. I said this to her one day:
"I am envious with your life. Though, no life is perfect, it seems yours is the almost perfect life I see. You smile for 29 days and only look a bit down for 2 days in a month. You are like a sunshine that shines day and night. I am not like you. I am just the opposite. Though, no life can be said perfect, mine does not even come to almost perfect. I smile for 2-4 days and looking sad, troubled, gloomy for 27-29 days in a month. I even sometime forget how to smile and crying is a daily dosis for me. I am like someone who is drowning in the sea and trying to swim back to the shore. Sometime I nearly die from drowning but other times, I manage to keep my head afloat to breathe. Why can't I be happier a bit or even enjoying my life like others do?"

It's quite easy, isn't it to be said than done? I, sometime, take a time on my own to be in my room alone and usually @ night, I will start asking and raise the questions to God, why this why that how this how that and so on. Of course, I don't get the answers, not straight away. Though, I have best friends but I cannot share every single stories with them, can I? I don't want to burden them with my problems. I rather reserved them for myself. I do sometime write my problems in a piece of paper, just trying to get them outta my head and at certain time it helps a lot. Another method I try is to cry. Although, crying often being considered sissy thing to do, but after having a good cry, I will feel better. It's like getting all the emotions out. I don't care if the next day my eyes look swollen and puffy as long as my heart feels lighter a bit. Like the past few weeks, when everybody was fast asleep, I often sat down in the working room and let out a silent cry. Sometime I would go online, hoping I would see someone I knew online and just chatted few words with them, trying to kill the problems by forgetting them.

You see, I am doing my best to always look at the brighter side than to see the dark. I am trying my best to leave the problems behind and to smile more. But, deep down in my heart, everything is still aching. Everything is still as bad as usual. My heart cries even more when I smile. Why do I always see it that my problems are greater than the others? Whilst in realisation, other people suffer even more from their problems and yet they are still blessed. I am perhaps contradicting myself. I am perhaps overdramatic things and situations. I used to ask myself, what is the purpose of life? now I know the answer, the purpose of life is to find happiness because without happiness, life is meaningless. There is this sentence that is quoted from someone (I don't remember the name), it says: A person can be called successful when he/she has been down, in trouble, beaten up and in debt, yet he/she can rise again, resolve the problems, settle the debt and still alive.

I need to re-new my faith and re-evaluate my life. Perhaps then I can find my own happiness and for once think that life is not meaningless.

So my journey here is gonna end next week...I can't imagine next week, I will by lying in my room and thinking how pathetic life is there. If I could avoid one place, it would be my hometown right now. So many things have happened in the last 3 months I was there (from July to October) and I am not looking forward to go back home. I am just trying to run away from home and wishing that I need not to go back, I wish I could stay here or somewhere else will do :'( I am not making things easy, am I? I am just running away from problems, I know that...sometime I just don't feel like I want to settle my problems, sometime I just don't want to look behind and knowing that there are many many things await me there. I wish all these problems would go away without having me to settle them...how I wish...*sigh* I can't run away from reality I think. I have to be brave once more and try to face whatever it is that awaits me home. God, just give me strength and let me get through with all.

Anyway today is my last day of clubbing here :( How sad! Finally we hit Zouk. I heard so much about it after it being revamped but ah well, I didn't spot any big differences from one room to another. Words whispered that it cost around S$7 million to revamp the whole place and I must say it's a waste of money with nothing going so special about it. I didn't see the S$7 million unfortunatelly. All I admired the most was the pictures or painting that hung at Velvet, in the entrance corridor...they are all designed by Murakami! The same designer as LV Murakami. Very great...when I saw it, I could tell right on who designed those pictures ;)

I did drink a bit, I really can't drink. The Vodka orange was good, the whiskey green tea was alright, the worst must be the Ribena! It tasted like medicine, cough syrup medicine...I didn't like it :( We visited Winebar which I never took a notice before, the first time I went there. Phuture was as crazy packed as usual, Velvet has never been my favourite with the trance kinda music and Zouk, ah well, the music was techno, though I hated the music, I must say it's the only place that I could breathe quite gladly. The lights were quite bright to give me the chance to check out my surroundings. I spotted this one guy, whom I must say he might be thinking he's Neo from matrix or something + the combination of Michael Jackson cos he was wearing a pair of white gloves (ok that reminded me of Mickey Mouse's gloves huahuahaua). He danced like a freak! It was erghhh a pathetic attempt to impress people. He mixed the 70 movement and everything! He's just crazy but he was a good entertainment! Reaching Zouk, I saw this guy in white shirt and he's gay! He was like touching his guy friend's bumps! huahuahua grossssssssssssssssss....

We left at 3am+ and Johan wanted to have early breakfast...these guys seriously could still eat! whilst I was quite thirsty and being so greedy, I ordered Milo Godzilla and ah well I finished it! I will gain weight for sure and later on today at 1, I am meeting my friend for lunch and ngafe...huhuhuhuhuhu

Overall, nice weekend...ohhh I wish I could go back here ASAP! Nice getaway....

This is the pic pre-partying

Another interesting story is that ya know on friendster nowdays, you can send "smile" to someone you want and this particulary someone, goes by the name "serene" sent me 'smile' so many bloody times. I checked her profile once without even realising it was a she in the beginning. Since I saw no connetion between her and me, I ignored her completely. After receiving several more smiles, I decided to message this serene, asked her what she wanted...then I did check her profile this time and I read the 'about me' part, there she wrote that she's a lesbian...ok that was not so cool and freak me out. She might be thinking I was a lesbian bitch as well! :S...I blocked her straight-away...don't get me wrong, I have no problem with lesbians but I just don't like it when these people turning to be aggresive towards the straight girls!

As I mentioned, last night, I didn't get a good nite, something pissed me off so badly that I wanted to cry (which eventually I did). My cousin in the States and my sister in Shanghai who accompanied me by being online until 6 in the morning. I was just in raged that I wanted to scream so badly and tell the whole world I was not fine. I couldn't find the main reason I was upset yesterday. My sister kept asking me which one made me feel frustated the most. I couldn't tell the diff and I said every single of them made me grow in fury and anger. After we finished up chatting, I headed down to the dinning room, fixing myself a cup of tea to sooth my stress. It didn't really help that much as I was still feeling not that well. I decided to head to the shower to cool myself down a bit and after all I promised to collect my t-shirt @ 11am. My friend called and apparently she's already back from her trip to Thailand and was in hospital with another friend. I told her I would catch her up later after I finished up my little business. My plan for the day was visiting this "Make Up Store" that is owned by my cousin's wife's sister. Quite good, the like of MAC for the range of colors and the shape. I didn't buy anything as I was not in the mood for any cosmetic and my skins are drying up (they are actually peeling off, you can see the skin shedding ewwwww). Instead, I bought the diamond top by Bebe in orange! Mandarin orange...continued my journey, exchanging my t-shirt and I purchased another one with cheeky wording on it. Of course, I couldn't forget my fav shop of all "Forever 21". I got this one hot pants in white and it does make your legs go never ending.

Afterwards, I went to the hospital and checked out how my friend was doing. Apparently she needed a minor surgery which was supposed to take place the next day. As we were sending her for blood test, one of the nurses rang her and informed her the surgery was about to take place later on at 17.00 hours which was like few more hours to go by then (my clock showed it was already 14.30 hours). We were rushing to get everything done before the surgery, rushing from here to there and even my friend had to stay in the admission centre as she needed to get everything done and I was sending the patient up to the patient room to get ready for the surgery. She was nervous I could tell. I would be if I were her. Her parents went panick too and called her and the maid for many times. As everything was ready, she was wheeled to the operating theatre and she was very frightened I must say. Whilst the operation was being carried on, me and my friend went to Taka to have something to eat. She had not eaten anything for the whole day, poor her. I didn't eat though. We went back to the hospital 45 min later and just in the nick of time, our friend was wheeled out from the operation theatre and she looked so drunk :p but we're all glad the operation went smoothly. I left as soon as she was alright. I had had Bomb Prata nearby my house with my nanny (She ate like two cheese prata!).

I know life is bunch of crap but sometime I just cannot handle it too well. Driving me insane.

Let me begin with the beginning of the li'l party we had here @ Thomson View. I missed it last year 'cos I needed to meet my mom's friend @ Orchard so this year, I said to myself I would love to check it out and saw all the fuss about it (The door prizes and everything) and in addition, we're allowed to bring our dogs along 'cos it's the year of dogs! Since Friday morning and night, me and my nanny were busy preparing Spanky's costume. It's really hard to find something cute and nice for big dogs comparing to small ones and you gotta know it when I talk about Spanky. I went to AMK in the afternoon, hoping to get him some cute li'l clothes or pants, the size of 5 year old kiddos. I failed to find something extra-ordinary, all I could find was those underwear with hello kitty pictures pasted on them (I am quite sure Spanky would mind!) or Chicken Little (gosh I dislike the cartoon so much!). Searching in vain, finally I found this basketball style pants in orange with number 23 on it and I thought it was perfect! So I bought that and went home and showed it to my nanny. She needed to do a bit of customization so that it allowed Spanky's tail to move freely and for him to pass urine without having to take the pants off. My nanny found a used piece of t-shirt (I think it was my mom's 'cos the color is pink and I saw the label was "Mastina" ---> one of my mom's fav brand) and we added some attributes to the t-shirt to make it more lively. We sewed this ribbons to make the wording "SPANKY" and some macho laces were sewed too. We were satisfied with the result :)

On Saturday morning, it was raining the whole day, we were a bit terrified that the event might be cancelled but thankfully as the clouds became darker, the rain stopped. At first, it was the Lion's dance performance. Loads of caucasian kids were wearing cheongsam and they had their faces painted! Cute :). It was continued with the dinner (ok I didn't manage to get the prawns and so on, only the fried rice and some fried chicken!), some games for kids and tada the dog competition. Spanky was the first to come forward. I bet my brother was a bit nervous 'cos when the host asked him questions, he was too dazed to answer them hehehe quite funny. Spanky performed very well. He sat, he slept, he gave both paws (left and right) and he did pai2 too! The second contestant was Strike Up, he's neighbour of ours. Very adorable dog with a fur that you can't resist to touch...afterwards, it was this dog, Furr I guess the name was....after we all finished showing off the dogs' skills, few min later, the judges made the final decision and Spanky won it! He claimed the title as "Dog of the year @ Thomson View" wohoooo...he received several bones and voucher of $40 (we're thinking of getting him a dog leash).

Me and my brother were chosen to join these 2 games...he was to peel the orange skin continuously and he won, whilst me doing the fashion show and competed for the best dressed. Well I didn't win but based on the crowds cheers, I came 2nd or 3rd perhaps, I am not that sure anyway :p

All in all, it was a good day :)

I promised to meet a dear friend of mine, Steph for dinner. It's been a while since the very last time we met actually. I also wanted her to check out my moles! I want to remove 'em and they are bothering me really. I just need to be assured of which of my moles need to be removed and apparently there are 3 to 4 moles that need to be removed *hiks*

So we had seafood @ Katong (was it Katong or somewhere? I didn't really remember or familiar with that place). The food was great except that I was too lazy to eat crab (I hate the 'amis' smell afterwards) and Steph was so nice to peel one for me! huahuahuaa it's like I was a princess or something! WOHO. Anyway I learnt about the plan going to 'MOS' during the dinner time.

Thankfully and somehow I was dressed to club, though it might not be the fancy t-shirt (I meant the bling bling t-shirts kind) still it's suitable enough for me to club with the clothes I was on last night and plus I LOVE my WAIST POUCH! *smack with a kiss*! It's so convenience to have it with me whilst clubbing (I no longer suffer from carrying around handbags like mad hoping that no drink would be spilled on it!) 'cos I can move freely! So there ya go, off we went to MOS (There were 5 of us and I was the shortest one! Damn, why am I so short????).

The club was cool, the cover charge was cheap (perhaps it was Thursday night?) and the best thing about clubbing on the weekdays was that it's not packed with people and it allows people to really check out the place (if you are interested on the interior design and such). We went from one room to different room and my fav was the 'retro room' for last night as two of the rooms were closed (and that's included the 'white room!' Rumoured has it that it's the best room of all! *dang*). The drinks were not so good, too much 'green tea' on it that I could barely taste the alcohol. The lychee that Steph ordered was quite good though. I must say the coolest thing about this club is the fact that they allow you to rent a private room for a private party and each room can be set up to match your desire type of music. I previewed one of the room, it was very cool with a private mini dance floor! Very cute....Another highlight from last night event was we thought we spotted this one sneaky guy who was trying to get a 1 night stand with a total stranger and that guy was like married! (I saw the wedding ring!) hahahaha they were like trying to make out on the dance floor with loads of people watching 'em...oh get a room! LOL

Anyway I feel so tired now. I am just getting older and older. Staying up so late is no longer my cup of tea (I meant staying out late to dugem...). I need to get some more sleep before meeting my friend tonight zzzzzzz

P.S: The unfortunate thing was that I forgot to bring my camera!

Anyway, since I educated myself in marketing (I found out my passion is all about marketing now), I purchased this book "Asia's Star Brands", which solemly I talked about in my few previous blogs and I must say, it's quite entertaining and educating in some ways. I am up to chapter 5 now and have been through few study cases. One that caught my eyes by far was the Nissan case. It's very impressive of what Mr. Carlos Ghosn did to the company though he met some drawback still in the end. Here's a bit of summary on the study case: